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:sigh: i'm really board. and i still got...about 5 hours til i usually go to bed. i can't get my mind off my new guitar!! ok, sorry i'll stop. anyway...i feel bad that my friend's gonna move, but i'm not spending as much time as i want to with her. her other best friend kelly's, spending alot of time with her. my weeks just been really busy. with babysitting, and guitar shopping...but still, i'm probably not gonna see her alot after she moves. i know how much it sucks when you have to move. it sucks a ton. espically when you love the place you're moving away from. the only thing is, i would do anything to move away from this place. I HATE IT HERE!!! hate it hate it hate it. only a select view really keep me sane. i feel kinda guilty because lately i've been sort of angry at sabrina. i don't really know why though. part of me thinks it's because she's a boy magnet, way unlike me. i mean, to myself, i'm not beautiful, but i'm not ugly ether. the other part of me thinks that it's because she's leaving me here. yea, i know it's not her fault. but i still can't get angry? she's moving to a pretty nice part of the state...while i'm stuck here in this fucked up town. sorry for the language...but sometimes you gotta use it. anyway...part of me is really scared that i'm like this because i like her...like, like her like her, which isn't very natural...i know that in the past i've had feelings for girls, and i'm a girl, but...i can't be falling in love with her? can i? i mean, she is totally straight. i'm suprised she was still my friend after i broke the truth to her. but...i dunno. i was talking to brittany about that. part of me wants to just go 'HEY SABRINA! don't freak...but i think you're totally awesome, and not just in a friend way...' something like that. espcially since she's moving...but then, i know that we'll proably still talk to stuff after she moves, so that part of me is like, don't say anything. brittany's also BI, and she thinks that sabrina's ok, but i think she's really pretty. now, it's sort of risky to say that stuff here. because my parents could read this, and also sabrina could. but...i dunno, i really want to post this here. it's sort of helping me release my feelings i guess. man...dude, life is confusing...really confusing. but i guess i need to lighten up. i mean, who at the age buys their own fender?? man, i hope we buy it near the end of the day. that way, it won't have to sit in the car...where it might melt or something. and then if we bring it inside, i'll be itching to play it, and well, since my dad works as an AV dude at this seminar place, there's amps everywhere, and i'll freak. so yea. i went to the bank today, and chased the check. not telling how much i got though, you might track me down and mob me. just joking. but i'm still not telling you, hehe.

well, you're getting alot of, sabrina this, daniel this and brittany that, so i guess, since i'm totally board, i'll tell you about them, aka my friends. i'l talk about my lil posse that i hang with at school. that way you'll sort of understand.

Brittany: my best friend. i've known her since 6th grade, so...about 2 years. she's really awesome, and really funny. she's goth, and she lives about 10 minutes away from me. she's a rocker...but, still awesome. lol. there was a period where she practically lived with me between school for about 2 months. so we got really close that way. i usually go to sabrina with stuff that bugs me. but somethings, i always share with brittany.
Sabrina: i've known her for about a year, thanks to some asshole. she's from argentina, and has a really HOT brother. she's really sweet, and nice, sometimes...she can get a little hyper, but, i can't talk. i share almost everything with her. unfortunally, she moving away. she's sort of my life support. but, it'll be cool...
Shannon: me and her...get along, somewhat. we have our differences, but can have a friendly convo. she lives in my neighborhood, but i can't see her alot. she's also into playing guitar, and got an electirc guitar before me. but it's just a walmart one. hehe, i got the real thing! ok...sorry calming down.
Joey: he's a dude i've known since 6th grade. he dyes his hair a different color every 3 or so months. like, orange, yellow, blue, and...pink. he says it was fadded red, and i'm like...which is...pink. well, he's sort of an asshole sometimes. but all in all, he's pretty sweet...when he wants to be.
Erica: i met erica halfway through this year. like me she's into anime. she's really nice. her family has a couple of problems, and unfortuanlly she might have to move to england with her mother and brother. but lets just hope that doesn't happen. she's pretty cool...a little creepy, but in that cool way. she has a rat named cementary that'll bit on command, so you gotta be careful.
Lizze: well, me and lizze used to have a little romance, but that's over now. she's pretty cool, though right now i'm pretty pissed. she's not friends with sabrina or brittany anymore. long long long story. she's sort of stupid...but yea...


well, i think that's all...uhh. i wanna type more, but i'm not, b/c then i won't havenething else to say. i gotta find some place where i can advertise. anyway ttyl

Claire: Look, I'm not going to discuss my private life with total strangers.
Alison: When you grow up, your heart dies.
Bender: Who cares.
Alison: I care.
-The Breakfast Club

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-BEC

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:sigh: i'm really board. and i still got...about 5 hours til i usually go to bed. i can't get my mind off my new guitar!! ok, sorry i'll stop. anyway...i feel bad that my friend's gonna move, but i'm not spending as much time as i want to with her. her other best friend kelly's, spending alot of time with her. my weeks just been really busy. with babysitting, and guitar shopping...but still, i'm probably not gonna see her alot after she moves. i know how much it sucks when you have to move. it sucks a ton. espically when you love the place you're moving away from. the only thing is, i would do anything to move away from this place. I HATE IT HERE!!! hate it hate it hate it. only a select view really keep me sane. i feel kinda guilty because lately i've been sort of angry at sabrina. i don't really know why though. part of me thinks it's because she's a boy magnet, way unlike me. i mean, to myself, i'm not beautiful, but i'm not ugly ether. the other part of me thinks that it's because she's leaving me here. yea, i know it's not her fault. but i still can't get angry? she's moving to a pretty nice part of the state...while i'm stuck here in this fucked up town. sorry for the language...but sometimes you gotta use it. anyway...part of me is really scared that i'm like this because i like her...like, like her like her, which isn't very natural...i know that in the past i've had feelings for girls, and i'm a girl, but...i can't be falling in love with her? can i? i mean, she is totally straight. i'm suprised she was still my friend after i broke the truth to her. but...i dunno. i was talking to brittany about that. part of me wants to just go 'HEY SABRINA! don't freak...but i think you're totally awesome, and not just in a friend way...' something like that. espcially since she's moving...but then, i know that we'll proably still talk to stuff after she moves, so that part of me is like, don't say anything. brittany's also BI, and she thinks that sabrina's ok, but i think she's really pretty. now, it's sort of risky to say that stuff here. because my parents could read this, and also sabrina could. but...i dunno, i really want to post this here. it's sort of helping me release my feelings i guess. man...dude, life is confusing...really confusing. but i guess i need to lighten up. i mean, who at the age buys their own fender?? man, i hope we buy it near the end of the day. that way, it won't have to sit in the car...where it might melt or something. and then if we bring it inside, i'll be itching to play it, and well, since my dad works as an AV dude at this seminar place, there's amps everywhere, and i'll freak. so yea. i went to the bank today, and chased the check. not telling how much i got though, you might track me down and mob me. just joking. but i'm still not telling you, hehe.

well, you're getting alot of, sabrina this, daniel this and brittany that, so i guess, since i'm totally board, i'll tell you about them, aka my friends. i'l talk about my lil posse that i hang with at school. that way you'll sort of understand.

Brittany: my best friend. i've known her since 6th grade, so...about 2 years. she's really awesome, and really funny. she's goth, and she lives about 10 minutes away from me. she's a rocker...but, still awesome. lol. there was a period where she practically lived with me between school for about 2 months. so we got really close that way. i usually go to sabrina with stuff that bugs me. but somethings, i always share with brittany.
Sabrina: i've known her for about a year, thanks to some asshole. she's from argentina, and has a really HOT brother. she's really sweet, and nice, sometimes...she can get a little hyper, but, i can't talk. i share almost everything with her. unfortunally, she moving away. she's sort of my life support. but, it'll be cool...
Shannon: me and her...get along, somewhat. we have our differences, but can have a friendly convo. she lives in my neighborhood, but i can't see her alot. she's also into playing guitar, and got an electirc guitar before me. but it's just a walmart one. hehe, i got the real thing! ok...sorry calming down.
Joey: he's a dude i've known since 6th grade. he dyes his hair a different color every 3 or so months. like, orange, yellow, blue, and...pink. he says it was fadded red, and i'm like...which is...pink. well, he's sort of an asshole sometimes. but all in all, he's pretty sweet...when he wants to be.
Erica: i met erica halfway through this year. like me she's into anime. she's really nice. her family has a couple of problems, and unfortuanlly she might have to move to england with her mother and brother. but lets just hope that doesn't happen. she's pretty cool...a little creepy, but in that cool way. she has a rat named cementary that'll bit on command, so you gotta be careful.
Lizze: well, me and lizze used to have a little romance, but that's over now. she's pretty cool, though right now i'm pretty pissed. she's not friends with sabrina or brittany anymore. long long long story. she's sort of stupid...but yea...


well, i think that's all...uhh. i wanna type more, but i'm not, b/c then i won't havenething else to say. i gotta find some place where i can advertise. anyway ttyl

Claire: Look, I'm not going to discuss my private life with total strangers.
Alison: When you grow up, your heart dies.
Bender: Who cares.
Alison: I care.
-The Breakfast Club

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Look, I gotta go, yeah I'm running outta change
-BEC