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August 27, 2004

i've luckily gotten my hands on a computer...and am able to type a...smaller post perhaps. since...i don't really feel like typing anything, i will let you have a peek at my inner most ... uh...feelings. this is a convo i had with my best friend...bout a problem i've been having...and of course make some funny comments on it ^_^


u2ilovethem: i had a horrible night last night...i got so cold. and well..this is gonna sound freakingg stupid but i'm really into this fanfic...so much...thats its weird. the way i usually come up w/stories is i'll pretend like i'm there or w/e the crap. well i've been imagining MY character there with THOSE characters...and i guess i've been imagining a bit to much..b/c thats all i dremt bout
u2ilovethem: well...not all
u2ilovethem: i had this screwed up dream that gir stole my notebook and mrs. hamby and harrison got really mad b/c i ran out of class to get it bak...and they wrote me up
( geez...stupid gir...)

u2ilovethem: but thats beside the point
u2ilovethem: i just...i dunno
u2ilovethem: its gotten to the point were...(don't call me craz k?) but it almost like i was actually there...lol, god that sounds so stupid
u2ilovethem: i dunno if its the fanfic or wat
u2ilovethem: but...i used to do this alot when i was a lil kid
sabri04demon: it's the fanfic, it happends to me 2..
u2ilovethem: speically when i was getting screamed at...just sort of drift into my own world...my mom says i have this real dazed look on my face, but i feel totally fine
sabri04demon: like i get stuck daydreamin or dreamin bout inuyasha and everything, like wut if i was there and had a gift, i actually goin to write bout it
u2ilovethem: and i really wish i was there...w/those characters god...this prob sounds so stupid to u
sabri04demon: nah i kno how u feel
u2ilovethem: i mean...all they are are ink on paper
u2ilovethem: and....ARGH
u2ilovethem: its just
u2ilovethem: killin me
u2ilovethem: i feel so...fake right now...like i don't belong here at this computer
u2ilovethem: and i mean...i quite for a long time day dreamin...but i guess since i got so yelled at durning the AR thing...i guess i'm bak to it now
sabri04demon: ... it's just ur imagination takin over...
u2ilovethem: i mean...it could come in handy when i get extreamly board or something..but i'll find myself talking to myself in the shower and its starting to scare me
u2ilovethem: and piss me off
u2ilovethem: and i don't really kno y i'm tellin u this...i guess b/c ur the only person who'd mayb understand...dunno y tho
sabri04demon: bc i kno how it feels, i mean i myself have dreams that make me cry and i wish i was there too, i'm not sayin this to go along w u or nething, i truly mean it
u2ilovethem: ...does this make us pyscho paths or w/e>
u2ilovethem: or um...schitzos?
sabri04demon: lol i dunno..
u2ilovethem: lol
u2ilovethem: its sort of like the music thing
u2ilovethem: w/me neway
u2ilovethem: if i had music in my ears all day...i would b a total diff person
u2ilovethem: music can controll my emotions
u2ilovethem: its weird...i'll b listinin to a sad song...and i'll feel sad and same with angry or fast or w/e

(no lie my friends...u put peter frampton in my ears and i'd be a bitch ALLL DAY)


u2ilovethem: shannon said i have a split personality
u2ilovethem: that i can b happy one sec but pissed the next...i guess thats true
sabri04demon: split?
sabri04demon: hehe
u2ilovethem: that i can b real nice but real mean
sabri04demon: u have more mood swings than a pregmant woman?
u2ilovethem: and...when i write i listen to music...if i want the mood to be sad, switch it to a sad song
u2ilovethem: hey
u2ilovethem: thats not funny
sabri04demon: lol
u2ilovethem: i'm never gonna b a pregent women
sabri04demon: srry it's just that i've been hearin that alot
sabri04demon: i swear
u2ilovethem: so i wouldn't kno
u2ilovethem: wat? r ppl sayin that 2 u?
sabri04demon: well same here
sabri04demon: umm..
sabri04demon: no it's just that readin so many fanfics bout inuyasha and kagome it's just like that she can b happy all smilin for a momentand then she just snapps
u2ilovethem: lol
sabri04demon: and i came across a few that said that ..
sabri04demon: but movin on..
u2ilovethem: lol
u2ilovethem: well
u2ilovethem: wat next? am i gonna start hearing the characters voices?
u2ilovethem: probably...i've already seen the one today...
u2ilovethem: he wasn't real lookin...but it looked like he was there

(i saw riku from kingdom hearts...god...he's so f***ing sexy...)






u2ilovethem: GOD
u2ilovethem: mayb i am craz
u2ilovethem: or mayb i just hate my life...which isn't something is hould hate
u2ilovethem: i really wish i could b given like a secert wand or something...and go 2 another world or w/e
u2ilovethem: i'm tired of this world...this town...this country
u2ilovethem: its...boaring as shit
sabri04demon: no i don't think ue crazy, but u kno ur self and when ever it gets out of control (u kno the seein characters) then u can just tell ur mom u can't hadle it nemore, so she'll take u to see some1
u2ilovethem: and its driving me craz
u2ilovethem: take me to see some1?
u2ilovethem: wat like a freaking shrink?
u2ilovethem: no way
sabri04demon: u kno u can come to my house whenever u want to get away from hopewell ^_^
u2ilovethem: yea
u2ilovethem: i kno
u2ilovethem: and i hope i will soon
sabri04demon: hey shinks r cool!
u2ilovethem: i'm not gonna talk to a shrink
u2ilovethem: ok
sabri04demon: u can tell 'em NETHING
u2ilovethem: well lucky u
sabri04demon: and they kno xacly wut to reply
u2ilovethem: u're getting great practice
u2ilovethem: yea
sabri04demon: lol
u2ilovethem: until they talk to ur parents and say how ur prob just striving for attention
u2ilovethem: lok
u2ilovethem: if i can't tell my mom i'm bi
u2ilovethem: i'm not telling her i'm see characters from my favorite vidio game
u2ilovethem: there is no way
u2ilovethem: or my dad ether
u2ilovethem: he'd sit and laugh his head off

(ether that or he'd sue hopewell saying the water did it to me)
sabri04demon: uhh....
u2ilovethem: uhh wat?
sabri04demon: i find that funny some how...
sabri04demon: but! ok i'm bak to earth ...
sabri04demon: arg damn i can't concentrate i gotta vaccum my room DAMN my mom and the freakin vaccumin thing!

(no joke ppl...her mom has her vaccuming the house bout 2 times a day...that is no over exageration...)


u2ilovethem: well it's prob b/c i'm just a funny person
u2ilovethem: lol
sabri04demon: yea that's true
u2ilovethem: she must b parinod of dust or something
sabri04demon: i'd bet on it

Ok...i have no clue why i'm laughing at that now...because i was basically in tears then...but :sigh: anyway... ttyl!


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